This year has been a funny one! A few ups, and a few downs! But non the less, some great results!
Nearing the end of this year in November, Doctors finally took me seriously, I was rushed in after my holiday to Egypt, after being in awful pain for the whole second week, and being sick! Not to mention having my head in a bag during a 5 hour flight!!
I'm now waiting for my Laparoscopy on the 6th January! Hopefully this will determine whats going on inside to cause whats going on!!
I'm hoping it goes well and i recover quickly! I cannot wait to get back to work!
I've also had a fantastic year! Found out who my true friends are, and met the most amazing man! He has made me very happy!
I'm hoping next year well be filled with lots of answers to my illness, and that my happiness continues!
I hope everyone has a fantastic new year!!
All the best!
So I was expecting Christmas to be .... well just O.K, you know the usual, presents, food and shit T.V.
Was I right? Of course not, I'm never right! IT WAS AMAZING!!!
Besides the acheyness and the awful pain in the evening, I had such an amazing day!
So many presents! I got so many wizaard of oz gifts long with a picture signed by the cast!
A gorgeous Boux dressing gown and slippers, perfume smellys, a Kindle from my gorgeous boyfriend and much more!
And then the last gift was given. Before I tell the story I will say a few months ago, I was told that I was going to Lanzarote for two weeks! Mega excited! And Louis and Elise was told we were going to Devon. Not so excited.
BUT.... Dad and Nicki, told Me, Louis nd elise to sit in a line, and we were all handed an envoplope each.
I was asked to open mine first whick said 'You do not deserve to go to Lanzrote'.
Louis was then asked to open his which read ' you do not deserve to go to Devon'.
Then elise was asked to open hers which then said 'But you deserve to go to..........'
Elise was then asked to open a fourth envolope which read 'DISNEY LAND FLORIDA'
Elise was screaming, while Me and Louis turnt to each other and said 'HUH??'
We was so confused we had no idea what just happened!
I ended up blurting out 'Oh i was rather looking forward to Lanzarote', till a few hours later it kicked in and I could have screamed the house down I was so happy!!
So this had to be one of the greatest Christmas's in quite a while!!
I hope you all had magical day, and I wish you all a Healthy, wealthy, happy and successful new year!!
So I haven't posted in a blog in quite a while! I don't think Iv'e been on planet earth!!
I'm really looking forward to christmas this year, and my birthday thats only two days before! I'm just slightly worried about everything going on inside me! I'm trying to rest up as much as I can so I have a really fantastic christmas period!
But with the build up towards christmas, i've not had the best time! I've seen my doctor god knows how many times! Ans been prescribed so many drugs! I am now taking, Tramadol, Naproxin, Codeine, Ibuprofen and paracetomal.
Needless to say, it doesn't touch me!
But to add to the stress of things, I can't sleep, and when I do, im having really awful nightmares! There so terrifying! I had to go back to my GP to talk about it! So he gave me three options.
Another Pain killer, An anti depressant called Amitriptyline or Morphine! I choose the anti depressent because my GP explained a low dose would help me sleep and control my night mares!
I've been on it four four nights now, and I willl say it hasn't touched me! I've done a lot of research on the drug, and learnt and been told that they have felt relaxed or been knocked out by the drug and always feeling drowsy. Iv'e not had anything, But i've decidd to try it over christmas as it may get better and my body may get used to it!
If not ill be back to my GP as our last option is Morphine, But finger crossed this works for me!!
I hope every one has a brilliant christmas and new year!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!
Recently my Dad and his partner have been really tough on me, telling me I need to ring the hospital everyday to try and get my surgery ASAP!! My Dad has helped me, ringing them too!
Today I rang, and was so upset, exhausted and in pain I just cried down the phone to the receptionist, begging her to give me surgery ASAP, as I can not stand the pain anymore. She listened to me, and took me seriously, and I am now going into surgery on the 6th January 2012 at 7.30am!
But now i need to try my hardest to get an appointment with my Doctor TODAY!! I need this pain to go away, and the painkillers and TENS machine don''t even touch it! I need help with this pain, i just want a good nights sleep, and to be able to go to work, and not cripple over in pain, being a complete burden on everyone else!!
And It's not just the pain, It's going to the toilet! I'm terrified to go! Weeing and pooing hurt, Pooing is the worst (I won't give you the details, it's pretty disgusting!). And not to mention the most vile metallic taste in my mouth!!
Hopefully I can get an appointment today, if not, i'm just going to A&E, I need to stop thinking of others and put myself first now! I can't carry on like this!
So bring on the Doctors today, please fix this pain, and bring on surgery in January! Please let things look up now!!
On monday I went back to work for the first time for quite a few weeks!
I really love my job so I'm glad I went back, but my God did it killed me!! Today was suppose to be my thrid day back, but there was no chance I could go in!
For the past two weeks, I've been having a metallic taste in my moouth which is so disgusting, and recently the pain has been getting really bad again, resulting in me having to use my crutch more often, (and i don't really want to)!
But the thing that's worrying me the most is, I keep getting bad chest pains, where it makes me bolt up straight, panicking, and I don't no what to do!! These are not new! I've told my Doctor, and the hospital, had many ECG'S and heart monitors attached to me, but everything seems to be fine. But they do really hurt.
But since this lovely taste in my mouth is so new, and the chest pains are getting worse, I think It's time to take another trip to the Doctors!
Maybe this time they can do something, and even though theres no stronger pain killers, hopefully they can give me something!
My life is on hold for the moment, It's so boring, and I want to be back to being 21!! Not 70! It's so starnge when you are fine, and the next day everything is spirraling downwards!!
BUT, once you have reached the bottom there is only one way back, and thats up!!
So fingers, toes, arms, legs and eyes crossed! Lets get me back to being fit and healthy!!!!
For so many weeks now I've not been able to sleep at night! And the one and only thing I wanted to do while I was off work doing sod all, was keep my body clock the exact same! Well ... That's gone out the window!
I have no idea why I can't sleep. I am the girl who can sleep for britain! Why has it suddenly decided to change?!?!?!?!?! I quite like sleeping thank you Mrs body clock, and not being awake at a ridiculous hour, with NOTHING to do!
It's so tediously boring just so you know, and the worse thing is, I'M SHATTERED! So why can't I sleep, I't honestly does not make any sense at all!! Mrs body clock, please and most kindly ..... FIX IT!
I've tried all the tricks in the book, Horlix, sleeping pills, a nice bath and relaxing down in the evening, keeping my self extra busy in the day so I tire myself out. But nope, Nothing!
So now, I am awake at 2.10AM on a saturday night/morning, writing my Blog. Would be more expected if I said I was out on the town getting s**t faced, but that won't be happening any time soon!
Maybe I'll just go back to bed and stare at the ceiling for a few more hours? I'd even say I'd read my book (Wicked) but i just plain and simply don't want to! Reason being, I'm a moody b***h!
But do you no what I hate the most, people saying,
'Why don't you just try'!
Oh really, why dont I just try??? Can you not think of anything better to say? Has it not crossed your mind that I have been trying for the past 4 hours?? I CAN NOT SLEEP!! And yes there is no such word as can't blah blah blah, But no I really can't, if I could I would have been zonked out ages ago!!!
So now after my little rant, I'm still not tired, So maybe I'll do some house work, look online for Christmas presents, watch ANOTHER dvd, (Did I mention i got through series 1 of Gavin and stacey in one night, sad Isn't it?) But whatever i do, lets hope it makes me very very tired!!!!
RANT OVER!
Just a short post to announce todays happiness,
Today i had a visit from one of my best friends! Shes had tougher then me, but it was so lovely to have a good catch up with her talk about old times and new.
I'm so excited that she is getting married to one of the most amazing guys on the planet.
And i am so happy to say that she has asked me to be maid of honour!
For atleast 5 minutes i completely forget everything, and was so blissfully happy!!
I cannot waait for the big day, and yes i will be in charge of organising the hen night!!
This wedding is going to be 10 times better then kate and wills!!
And i have to say, it's pretty amazing how one thing can turn everything around :)
